+ a beau__tiful ho___

February 28, 2005

Okay. Here I am.
I passed all my subjects.
But I'm like friggin not happy? =(~
Bye bye jc~
Bang - nIx, you're like so dead now.
So where do you want to go?
I'm so buey song with my maths results now.
If I had all the money in the world,
I'd be retaking it till I get my A1s.
I got a C5 for Art. Very unexpected. ~!@#$%^&*
B4 for English. ~!@#$%^&* too.
Then there's B3 for Maths. Boo boo.
C6 for Humans. Yes I rock. ~!#$%^&*
As as some alsasdfadskjf consolation,
I got a A2 for Combined Science.
Oh. And a merit for Chinese B. Hurray.
Ya. Nix, where are you going to go
with this type of results.
nIx.. How can you lie.
Where's your 6As? Haa.
Nevermind. No more resource. Hah.
Fine. I'm going off.
Bye.

-nIx- @ [[9:14 PM]]

February 27, 2005

I read Val's blog and I'm like
dumbfounded after I read it.
*Drops jaw.
Oi Val~ Don't become a lesbian!

I need nail polish remove real badly.
My nails are horrible. HAH.
Results tomorrow.
I'm still not worrying. *Shrugs.
Went to play arcade.
I played the bang bang game.
So fun especially when I'm a noobieeeeee~
Ange's going for camp straight after
collecting her results.
Urhh. Ya I've got some things
against ~~that~~ them people. HAH.
They're watching howl's moving castle.
I can't say I'll join them if my results
are good.
Hello? My good means getting As?
I shan't set expectations.
I'll just let them be. =D
So I shall just depend it on my mooooo-od. =D
I'm not sure if I have any school uniform.
Ain't that super good news? Hah.
I'm so doomed. =D
I only have 1 course in my mind.
I want jc. =(~
I should start worrying now LOL.
Whatever?
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:20 PM]]

February 26, 2005

*Updated below. =D

Yay. This is so blub blub.
*blubs.
Yea. A somewhat happy name.
Hehs.
Okay, okay.
I'm entertaining myself again.
I don't feel like working anymore.
Later they'll start asking for
my results if I ever go back. Hahh.

My wrapping skills are the best. =D
Ok ok. Don't judge a book by its cover.
It looks horrible. =D
I wrap real horribly.
But I don't care. xD.

I want to play the piano but first,
it'll have to be tuned and fixed.
Haa. Plus I only seem to play two songs.
I started hating the rest. =D
Yea.
The first song, Jia Ying thought me.
The second, I thought myself.
But I'm like very sure the keys are wrong.
Why? Because the piano hasn't been
tuned for the longest of time. =D

LOL, okay. I change my mind.
I want to try working as a cashier,
or some promoter. Heh.
I don't want those commission type.
I need fixed salary. =D

I still haven't found the nail polish remover.
ANGE HASN'T BEEN REPLYING ME.
[[Ok. I just sent her like 1 sms only.]]
Lin went to watch a movie without me.
Heartless creatures. ~!@#$%^&*
I want to go ice skating. LALALAS.

My sis borrowed her friend's flute home.
I'm so going to.. I don't know. Heh.
Yay. I'm typing like real fast now.
So happy. =x
I don't know why I'm typing this fast though.
There's no necessity to either. Heh.
Ok, I'm just entertaining myself. Nuts.
PIANO~ PIANO~ PIANO~ PIANO~ PIANO~ LALALAS.
I lose interest in things like
*snaps finger
this fast. =D
Off for now.

*
Yay.
I read my previous posts in my other blog.
It reminds me of so many stuff.
So flooded with these memories
I wished I never had.
Yups. Ice skating.

event :: ice skatin event [[open for all]]
rates ::
student - 2hrs ->$10.50
adult - 2hrs -> $12.60
whole day -> $45.20 [must be in groups of 4]
for more details please call 65651905 (fuji ice palace)

Feel free to join us on wednesday, 9th June '04.
rates ::
student - whole day - $8.40
price remains for adults.

we will be meeting at 2pm at jurong east mrt station.
Wednesday, 9th June '04.
feel free to join us anytime if you're unable to reach by the allocated time.
hope to see you there.

no freebies given. =xx~ just an outing..

if interested and able to come, please leave your name and number if possible [[ via pm ]]

if you cant stand low temperature, please gear yourself up.

organised +aNgELinEz+ and xIaO^xIn

please do not come if you are inviting trouble.
but after all we still welcome everybody.
please reply this post only if you're going.
because spammers will not be entertained. thanks.

HAHAHAHAHA.
Crap? I shouldn't have read them.
But anyway - Tadah! I got their number.
Arggh.
To that whoever who posted in that blog
THANKS A LOT EH. ~!@#$%^&*
Gee.
It's going to be another sleepless night.
Rar.
I watched a movie. Pieces of April.
It's nice. I like her shirt.
I want to ruin mine like that. HAA.
About this girl who goes all out
to go prepare dinner for thanksgiving
for her family. Bah.
Then there's her bf whose entertaining
to me - He got hit by her ex-bf. HAHAHA.
Tadahh? Ok fine.
I'm going to cut my hair. =D
Ain't it good news? =D
But no I'm not going to chop it all off. =D
Too bad. xD
Oi! Now I miss my camera.
*Curses the person who took it.
It's been with me for soo SHORT.
It took pictures of my cousin -
she's overseas now. HAPPY?
It took pictures of Korea -
I'm in Singapore now. HAPPY?
HAA.
But I don't feel much for it.
Probably because my mum always told me
money lost can be earnt back.
At least I'm smart enough
to keep the other 512MB memory card
into my bag for fear of losing that.
So I lost my camera and another 512MB card.
So smarttttt.

You know what?
I'm still not worried over my O's.
That means bad results? Boo.

I wonder how it's like being
chased by a wild boar. Bwahahaha.
Okays, okays.
Off for now. =D

-nIx- @ [[3:28 PM]]

*Updated below. =)

I'm going to get sick
of chocolates very soon.
I don't want to type much
but its okay.
I shall entertain you readers.
I'M COMING UP WITH A NEW BLOG ADD.
HAA. Feeling happy for me?
Well too bad if you're not. =D
I don't care. xD.
I have temptations to join back DW.
But for some reasons, I'll not. =D
I painted my nails.
They looked horrible.
My left hand's perfect but not my right.
Can't seem to find
the mighty Nail Polish Remover.

I had a real weird dream.
It's a nightmare actually.
[[I shan't bother myself with the enters.]]
Dreamt I was in some Police Force or whatever. Then we were doing something. I guess we were finish and were having some briefing or conclusion thingy. Then we were in two rooms sitting down. So I suppose there were like 40 x 2 = 80 people around. Then we had to leave because it was late - not the night type but the bad people were back or something. There's something weird about this place. When you reach the carpark, you can't exit unless you see 60 security cameras. If you don't see exactly 60, you can't exit or you'll get killed by these bad people. I don't know. It's sort of some safety precaution the bad people take to protect you. So I don't know if they're bad or good. I somehow switched from the big bus to a smaller van-sized bus. Then this person counted 56. Somehow I don't know what happened to this person but I ended up counting. I kept counting 21 then this bloody driver starts driving to fast for me to count and I had to keep on recounting. ~!@#$%^&* Ok then I finally explained to the driver why he/she shouldn't drive too fast because I couldn't count. Then the people inside couldn't see the camera - so I drew it out for them~!@#$%^&* Then there was this taxi with two people who just entered. I somehow ended up with them.
Then I got woken up by my mum. I have no idea what the dream meant. Maybe I was running away. I just felt more tired than before I went to sleep. I always do whenever I dreamt of myself running away from something or any activity that requires huge amount of energy in fact.

Random Facts. =D
I think I entertain myself real well.
I havn't finished packing my room.
The weather's hot now.
I'm typing slower than I used to.
The fan's not switched on.
I'm bored so I'm typing this.
This is my blog.
I'm changing my blog address real soon.
You can expect it to end with a "-" =D
I like my style.
I love myself.
I still havn't found the perfect game.
I shan't wait no more for it.
I'll expect myself to live in regrets.
I hate the background but - whatever?
I want to live somewhere else.
I feel like swimming alone.
I want to go ice skating.
I'm waiting for my O's.
I don't feel the least worried.
I ough to expect bad results
because of the following I saw.
"The more you worry,
the better your results will be."
And I'm not the least worried,
well at least for now.
Maybe I'm a crack in the head.
I didn't even worry about the camera.
This was supposed to be a short entry.
I'm going to continue
packing my room tomorrow.
I won't be able to pack it
if it's way too messy -
that would actually be
not too long from now. =)

I shouldn't let myself be left alone -
at least for now.
Lately, I tend to let myself think
a bit too much -
and that's causing a real problem
because I'm afraid that
I might end up paranoid.
But I still want to be alone. =/
Right now, I really feel
that I shouldn't share much.
It's scary when people know
too much about yourself.
This, is just me.
I want my dream interpreted.
I just don't get it.
But me being the long-winded and
unable to find words at times
type of person, I guess whoever would
be going "huh" even before I'm
halfway through.
CRAP. After writing all this,
I suddenly feel as if I'm just
seeking attention from everyone.
Yea maybe I am cuz I'm jealous -
All the people around me
don't care about me. HAHA.
Not that I deserve it. =x
Ok fine, fine.
I'm just entertaining myself.
Off for now.

*
Yes. I'm going to change my blog add
right after I click the publish button.
nIx is going to be very, very selfish.
She ain't going to share it with anyone
unless she wishes to. =D
Ask me personally if you want my address.
Off for now. =D

-nIx- @ [[12:47 AM]]

February 25, 2005

What?
I said I wanted a day by myself.
You got a problem with that?
I want to pack my room
and watch tv at the same time.
What's wrong with it?
I don't see nothing wrong
but u bloody call that lazy?
You're not my mum, you're not my dad,
you're not my sis.
We're not related and never were.
Sheesh.
Not as if I'm obliged or asked
to pack my room.
I did it on my own accord.
Duh.
I don't even see the need to pack it?
I'm only inside when it comes
to changing and sleeping.
Like.. Why else should I remain
cooped up in my room.
There ain't any tv or computer.
So watch your words.
I don't care if you know my blog add.
Go aheadddd. Read it.
I've been cheated by you once
and that's like enough?
EEEEeeeps.
I want the day to myself.
They want me to cook.
Bahbah. It's fine with me
if you want to eat tasteless food. =D
*Evil laughter.

Time for a new dollhouse but
I've got no resources whatsoever.
After lunch, I'm going to entertain
myself with whatever possible.
I feel like vandalising my wall again
but I'll be kind to my mum who helped
me paint it when I lost my interest in it.

I still want fluffy's picture into my phone.

I decided that Nursing
isn't really what I want.
Yea and I can't decide on what
course that I really yearn for.
Yea, I suppose it's not courses I want.
Hehh. I have to wake up soon. =)

Okay okay. I'll entertain myself
with nail polish. =)
I paint horribly.
I've no school shoes. =/

Featuring - SOUR DADDY!
Yea. So fatherly and entertaining.
It all started when he asked Chung Hei
if he wanted to wash his feet. Bwahaha.
I'm in the mood of entertaining myself.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[11:11 AM]]

February 24, 2005

I don't care. xD.
I'm going to change my blog address.
I'll find one soon. =)

Changed my blogskin.
I'll do my best not to remember it anymore.
And I'll only speak of it
if it makes a comeback.
Shan't pin too high hopes on it.
The whatever says that
Dragon -
The more you worry, the better your results will be.
But I'm not worrying yet.
So I expect it to be bad?
How can I force myself to worry.
I just don't feel it. Heh.
Fate was sealed the moment
I handed up the papers.
I don't care.
Now I feel the stress of having tell
people the results.

Chalet.
We played murderer.
And the most entertaining part
is to see the murderer in action.
I stopped playing.
Then I decided to see their
reaction when the murderer
wasn't doing anything.
Then I joined back
and got murderer that very turn.
Then I don't know why but
two people killed themselves.
One victim was killed by another
and one committed suicide.
Lin accidently looked at my card
then we both started laughing
and she fell to the floor.
So entertaining.
I like pop n music.
But I can't do nuts with it.
I need val's help. Heh.

I want to go ice skating but only
with girls or the lol gang. =/
I feel like running away. =)
From what? - I don't know.
I wanna spend tomorrow by myself
and that's what I'm going to do.
Unless my parents come out
with a very superb decision.

I'm filing my nails because
~~I want them to look pretty~~
I've got nothing to do now.
I'm off. Bye.

-nIx- @ [[8:11 PM]]

Came back from chalet.
All's well except for the fact
that I came back without my camera.
Well I still think it's stolen. Heh.
But all's fine.
Now I finally know what to do with my pay.

I'm going to change my blogskin.
I don't want this no more.
It's.. =/

I'm tired.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[12:05 PM]]

February 21, 2005

The cup infront of me with the handle - Quince tea! =D

-nIx- @ [[8:23 PM]]

cutx! alp was forced to eat half the cake. even though he didn't finish it. haha. and he found buttercup inside. should have taken a video. =/

-nIx- @ [[8:20 PM]]

soulz? lutlut! elfonse. lickx. nix. =D angez. elephant! nahs. jokings. soulz, luther, alphonse, angelic, nix, angez, elie!

-nIx- @ [[8:19 PM]]

sparklers! beside the pepsi machines. We got chased away by the security guard after a while. =x~ they use petrol or something to operate those machines. =D

-nIx- @ [[8:17 PM]]

buttercup was found in alp's cake - compliments to nix. =D

-nIx- @ [[8:16 PM]]

im sure alphonse loves the mango cake. muahaha. he's sure going to steer away from mango cakes for a long, long duration. =) Buttercup rules. =D Nix is evil.

-nIx- @ [[8:16 PM]]

I feel like playing at Escape again.
I can't believe that my memory has
failed me.
Couldn't even remember that
Chien Fu is from 3joy'03.
Sick's just an excuse. =(~
I can't believe that I fell sick.
This means no Escape for me.
Why? Because I've lost my sense of balance.
Or rather, I'm afriad I would.
I forgot to mention that I had
Quince tea in Korea.
That totally reminds me of OZ.
It was sweet. A bit too sweet
to my liking. $8. =/ Quinceeee.
Ok I just posted it's photo.
By the way. Please don't go
around sending photos out.
Copyright of nIx (and friends)! =D
Lin, oh, Lin. Where are you.
Off for now. =)

-nIx- @ [[7:54 PM]]

roadside stores~ whee.

-nIx- @ [[7:53 PM]]

i have no idea what this means. =x~

-nIx- @ [[7:00 PM]]

bearr.

-nIx- @ [[6:56 PM]]

hehss

-nIx- @ [[6:55 PM]]

I fell sick. Haa.
I realised that at 4am.
Woke up a lot of times.
4am+,5am+,7am+,9am+.
Then I finally went to the doctor.
I was so irritated.
I didn't have the energy
to talk, to move, to walk.
I forced my every single movement.
The doctor's an idiot.
He doesn't care.
I know he doesn't.
All he cares is about earning money.
Didn't want to speak in front of him.
Or rather I couldn't.
Then pain was unbearable.
Then I went out of the room
and started crying.
Then the person at the counter
called my name.
All I did was stand there and cry
till my mum came out of the toilet.
And I cried more.
Till they gave me painkiller.
I havn't cried for a long time.
Other than about Ange's company.
Or for that game I loved so much.
Why can't I just seem to forget about it.
Bahh.
Sheesh.
I wanted to go back to work.
Then I fell sick.
asldfjka;sldfjlskfj.
This KILLS.
I can't laugh, I can't smile,
I can't go out, I can't work,
I can't play,
I can't help but feel uneasy.
I want to go out.
But I'm sick.
BAhhhhhhhhhh.
Sickkkkkk.
I have no idea what I did.
It just happened overnight.
Everything's just not right today.
Sick!
Don't you just love this word?
Bah.
Please let me feel better tomorrow.
Oh great.
I just realised.
Tomorrow's class chalet.
Darnnn.
I'll be kicking my ass
if I continue feeling this sick.
I want to play.
Drown my sorrows away with the sea.
Ride with the wind.
I still want to enjoy life.
Results in a few days time.
I don't even feel like I bother.
adsfadslkj.
Ok fine. I'm just feeling irritated now.
I shall continue blogging
when I'm in a better mood.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[2:19 PM]]

February 20, 2005

Smart. =)
Went to watch Hide and Seek
in the afternoon.
It was a rar rar. =)
Then I came home and forgot
my house keys.
I havn't found them yet.
So went out wif Lin to PS.
YES I CAN CRY.
LOVELY TRANSPORT FEES.
I topped up $10 and I'm left with $4.70.
All in a day's travel.
And yes that excludes my ride there
which is about $1.50 at minimum?
So heavenly.
I miss student fares. =(~
Ange ange.
DW. =/
I'm tiredddddd.
Since 4+.
Bah.
Off to sleep.

-nIx- @ [[10:48 PM]]

I havn't blogged for the longest of time.
Well here I am now.
Gee. My typing speed has slown down
way way too bad for me. =(~
I see typos I see typos.
Bahhh.
Korea trip was fun. xD
But there's way too much to talk about
so I shan't bother to type them down. =D
Went to Escape yesterday. Whee.
Played till I felt so, so sick. Haa.
So that makes a total of 3theme parks
in 7days.
[[If you consider Escape one. =x]]
I'm a Lotte World supporter. =X~
I went to their theme park,
bought their -
Chocolate, ice cream and chewing gum. =D
Yea. I couldn't spend much because
we kept running low on money.
So urhh. Sorry? -.-
Felt really hungry the moment
you eat finish and turn around to walk.
Muahaha.
I have no idea why.
My skin's horrible.
I can't stand the dry dry weather. Boo.
But to sum it up, it's much better
than other countries which are
way drier. =D
I like that place.
But I don't understand their language.
So that's a bad point. Heh.
I love their strawberries. =D
So sweet. Yum.
And we had instant noodles
on the morning of the last day.
See how broke we were? =x~
I love my shoe. =x~
Exclusive. Heh.
Off for now. =)

-nIx- @ [[10:11 AM]]

February 19, 2005

BWAHAHAA. <3~

-nIx- @ [[10:26 AM]]

welcome to everlanddd~

-nIx- @ [[10:25 AM]]

white tiger. popular pick among the people who bought it.

-nIx- @ [[10:24 AM]]

i love this rabbit. but they don't let me have it. =(~ okok. We were actually havint some financial difficulties like... errr.

-nIx- @ [[10:23 AM]]

February 11, 2005

*Updated below. =)

Ya like what the shit now?
They come home and they start
their nonsence. Yes. Not me, they.
He comes home and tells me
"If you can't do two things at one
time then I suggest you switch
off your computer."
In a very loud tone.
First I'm like frigging annoyed
at his comment.
Then I replied like
we havn't even started packing
and you're doubting that I'd help.
Where's the frigging trust?
I feel super insulted.
Then now she has to go
can you stop your whatever.
She's just bringing out tea.
TEA. Hello? Not packing either.
Yea. I'd continue going like
what the shit? if I don't stop myself.

Went to Mr Goh's house today.
It's super big and neat.
There's a fish pond and a nice little rabbit.
Then the stuff his helper makes are yummy.
Recipes from his mother. Ooh.
And I like the soya bean!
Not too sweet and not too bland either.
Then there's his daughter that
reminds me of Inch. Probably the looks.
He has lots of bears at home.
Male bears. Haa.
All given by schools and such.
Then a whole coke collection and all.
Hehss.
Went off towards town.
Played pool which I gave up on. Hah.

What the shittttt?! ~!@#$%^&*
*Grumbles.
Fine.
Off for now. =))))))))))))~~~~~~. =/

*
I just found out that the plane flight
is like only 6hours or so.
Bahbah. I wish for more. Hehs.
My mum's going to bring my Mango jacket
this time! Whee.
I love it. =D
Then I want to bring my hood.
But it's going to have to depend on space.
Rar.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[9:13 PM]]

February 10, 2005

*Updated below. =)

I learnt to live the simple way.
That's why I standing here today.
Bahbah!
I don't know why I'm writing this crap.
Hehss.
Am typing right now while Lin is frantically
trying to search for the cockroach
that has escaped from the kitchen. Haa.
I dreamt about OZ yesterday afternoon -
I supposed I did.
Then I didn't want to sleep anymore. Hah.
My mum already knows that whatever money
that gets into my hands will land on my table,
waiting to get stashed by the robbers. =x
I have no idea what I'm going to do
with the money from the Red Packets.
I'd most probably return my mum
the amount she gave out.
[[And end up with nothing. =x]]
She has ego like thisssssss much.
*Raises hands to the highest possible.
Yes. From the ground to the very tip
of my fingersnails.
Degrading everything she sees around
her except for her own course.
Now that's why I don't want to join. =/
I like the way I am now. =D
I think people are thinking
that I live a sad, sad life -
in other words, lifeless.
But I'm happy the way I am now. =)
Am thinkin of cutting my hair
after the New Year.
Plus only after I've trust that
whoever's going to cut my hair
is really good and recommended by many.

Oh yea. I've got hardly anything
to pack because I already did
prepare for the trip last year. =D
I'm really keen on going to Mr Goh's
house on Friday. =)
The principal who left the hugest
footprint in my life. Haa.

Oinkk:
Can you pleaseeeeeee put
a tagboard in your blog?
It just takes a maximum of
a few minutes to get it done. =D
Cheerios to your Msn. =)

Angee:
Yea. Hardly online when I want you to be.
Haas. Ice skatinggggg. =(~
I'd most probably be afraid of the cold
for a while though. =x

Jia Yingg:
Oh my. Long time no see! Go outttt!

Ameliaa:
Didn't see you for a long time too!
We should go out together one day k?

Pok Pokk:
Whoaa ehs. Busy guy.
12hr thingy.
Give me half your pay!

Jialongg:
You owe me many treats.
Thanks ah.
"See you in Sec3 next year." =)
I will remember that.

Herr:
She don't love you. She don't love you.
She don't love you. She don't love you!
Haa. I'm evil.

Evil sinister looking villian nIxIe the pIxIe.
Ahahahaks.

Featuring - aNgEz!
- Not so loyal Ozian
- Inspired by me. [[Right? Right?! =x]]
- Talks to me.
- Craps with me.
- Goes out with me.
- Is currently working at SMC, Banquet.
- Having difficulty there. [[At times. =X]]
- Enjoying herself somewhere now without me.
- Her mom likes me! [[WAHAHAHA. I'm good. =D]]

Eh I find this fun. =x

Thanks list!
Not in order. =)

aNgEz -
Haaaa. Thanks
- For going out with me
on almost always last minute calls.
- For talking to me.
- For entertaining me.
- For the blog picture edits.
- For html codes.
- For a lot of things. =)
Thanks to your mum too. =D

Samuel -
Thanks.
- For being such a crapper.
- For talking to me!
- For tolerating me.
- For sharing your complains with me.
- For listening to me rant.
- For smsing me even when I know
you don't like to. I'm so honoured. =x

Sherwyn -
Thanks.
- For killing me plenty of times.
- For making me practice my persistance.
- For testing my patience.
- For talking to me when I'm BORED.
- For torturing me with your big display picture.

Oink -
Thanks.
- For being the Queen of Peach.
- For loving me loads.
[[Admit it, I know you do. =x]]
- For being lucky.
- For the many drawings which
I can't seem to do as nicely.

Cy -
Thanks.
- For making me happy.
- For talking to me.
- For finding the Nemo and Friends
figurines(?)
- For the hello kitty and pooh.
- For tolerating with my "dunnos" Hah!

Workmates -
Thanks.
For allowing me to learn. I know you all
can't stand such a newbie like me. =x
But I'm learning.
Thanks for the cash. I don't know what
to do with them now.
Thanks for letting me meet so many kinds
of people and get jealous about them
over the many languages they speak. Haa.
Bernard the one who don't let me
do anything but B station unless
the captain asks me to. Oh ya.
Tiger tiger. Bang.
Willard the helpful one who taught
me how to handle the Tiger. LOL.
Yu Ping the one who taught me lots
on my first day of work, new card games
and talks to me a lot. xp
To the rest who taught me lots too - Thanks.

Here are some who I really want to thank
but can't find much to say.
Or those who wished me a Happy New Year. =)
Yea I'm sorry. -.-
- Luoping
- Lin
- Weiren
- Cloud
- Aggy
- Ian
- Gillian
- Patrick
- Val
- Angelic
- Luther
- Aik Boon
- Naj
- Han
- Blur
- ~~Alphonse~~Elfonse. =x
- Shadow
- James
- Supreme
- Miss Siu
- Mrs Lee
- Mrs Chow
Ahahaks.
Yea I think I'm not done
but my mum's hurrying me to sleep early.
So I can help her tomorrow or something.
Off for now.

*
I watched Constantine today. Haa.
I tell you.
I have no head nor tail about it.
I only know its some
angel and devil movie or something. =x
It was half hilarious and half scary.
I spilled Pepsi on my shirt this time. =x
Then I spilled Pepsi again on the
hood I wore over. How heavenly.
First it was Ice Milo,
then Coffee(?) flavoured Soya Bean
and now it's Pepsi.
Such a fun day. =/
The little girl beside me made me laugh.
"Mummy don't watch the show so scary."
"Mummy what the guy doing to the girl."
and yet another sentence from her
which I don't quite remember. Hehs.
Went to eat dinner at 9pm+.
The tv loves me now.
I pressed its volume up
and it gave me volume down.
How pleasant. =D
But the control's working fine. Hehss.
I can't wait till tomorrow. =)
I get to visit the principal. Haas.
I must sleep early. =D
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[1:45 AM]]

February 09, 2005

How comforting it feels
to find out that your
poems are safely tucked
into a folder which
is hidden somewhere?
I can't find that file.
Why am I suddenly
thinking of my dear poems?
Because I went to the website
Ange and I made with love
which got a $10 Popular voucher
which is also missing.
Yes. Totally comforting.
I looked at the poems
and can't believe
that I once wrote it.
My English is so bad now. =/
*Grumbles.
But actually,
I found out that I sounded
rather childish and dreamlike.
*Laughs.

.:[L]iF[e]:.
The twinklin' stars that shine so bright
under the presence of the moonlight
the animals wondering tomorrow's fate
be they alive or be they dead
The fire warming up the air
with grandma on her rocking chair
the air carries a smell of wood
while little kids are eating food
The early morn, sky's filled with fog
and farmers harvesting their crop
insects, they have lots to say
chatting till the break of day
horses feeding on their hay
with people going sunset bay.

Copyright © 2003,2004,2005 nIx

This is named .:[L]iF[e]:. - in loving memory of the clan that I once treasured very dearly. =)

sEaSoN
Autumn time, the leaves are fallin'
can you sense that winter's comin'
the weather's gettin colder
our apple tree's turnin older
let's meet outside the garden door
and hear the leaves drop on the floor.

When winter comes and you start to daze,
we'll go over to the fireplace
with sounds of laughter everywhere
and fire sparks we must beware
the Christmas tree that once was plain
now adorned stood proud and vain
with wrapped up presents bright with gleam
and little children full of glee

as spring moves on, the flowers bloom
the scent of green removes the gloom
paints a shade of pink on cheeks
nature awakens, spirits peak
children play throughout the day
fresh is the mud as smooth as clay

a rainbow shines across the sky
high above, the blackbirds fly.
summer reigns, rays of light from above
disclosing the treasures of the earth
faint whispers of the trees
swaying freely in the breeze.

Copyright © 2003,2004,2005 nIx

I did this during class time with a little help from I can't remember who.

The third one inside you wouldn't
want to read. =)
At least Ange wouldn't.
Shan't post it here. Haas.
But on the other hand,
I have no idea why I wrote that.
Most probably feeling a bit
remorseful if I placed myself
in other's shoes - in other words,
I wrote it the way
I imagined how others would feel.
Haa. It's such a joke.
No no I think I knew why I wrote it.
Because someone wanted to make a song
that's about that.
Yup, yup. I think so. =x
It never became a song though -
at least for then.

I found another set of neoprints
this time while searching for the file.
So this means a total of 2neoprints
found this week. =)
I havn't started packing for my trip.
The most important thing I should do now
is to prevent myself from falling sick.
I don't want to miss all those rides,
especially when it's only 2 half days
at each place. 5rides each.
So little. Boo. Hehs.

The weather's hot!
I feel like taking a little nap,
considering that I planned to sleep early,
but my mum said children should sleep
late yesterday so the parents
would have long life or something.
And so I did, slept real late at night,
or rather, early in the morning.
Woke up early too.
Found my tortoise at my room door.
How Heavenly. =/
Wished my parents Happy New Year
then went to Grandma's house
to wish them and family Happy New Year.
Recieved a phonecall from Aunty Dawn
and family. Hehs.
Talked to them for a short while.
I want to visit them when it snows! +_+
Went back 2days before it started
snowing. So unlucky. =x
I've never seen it snowing before.
But I've seen snow.
Hehss. I'm going to nap.
Off for now. =)~

-nIx- @ [[2:29 PM]]

February 08, 2005

*Updated below. =)

Happy day today.
First stop was school where
I was entertained by the
primary school's performance,
the girl is so cuteee and
the teacher's Gong Xi song.
Then I passed my blue books
to Miss Siu. <3~
Chocolate Ang Paos. Hees.
Saw the guy that I supposed
joined Superteens and was real
tempted to introduce the programme
to the school. I have no idea why.
But I didn't. =/
Walked to the MRT and saw
Wei Siang or something.
Intake for next badge 700. =(~
I'm lost at wad course to take.
He says males are needed everywhere.
Bahh. Help?
Off to Dhoby to accompany Oink
for her New Year shopping.
Her cupboard's basically
filled with black clothes.
Then went to Cityhall to meet Cy.
Watched Seoul Raiders.
Not too bad. =)
Then he gave me a whole
set of mini Nemo and friends
figurines but no Peach. Ahahaks.
Maybe I should start with
liking the turtle. =D~
Peach is really a small
character in the show. -.-||
Then we went to River Hongbao?
and saw numbers on the floor.
And walked around.
Played the games there -.-||
Won some Hello Kitty stuff
and Pooh bear stuff. Hahas. =)
Thanks a lot. =D
Off to Uncle's house for
reunion dinner, mum's side.
Went back and played PS1.
I have no idea why.
But my sis wanted to play it.
xD. Korea!
I'm thinking of what I should pack.
I love winter.
I envy those having winter.
But once I'm there I'd hate it
for about another half a year or so.
Haa. But I'm looking forward
to theme parks! =D
Off for now. =)

*
Hehss. Yea. I sound unhappy
yesterday. =)
But a lot of things today
cheered me up. =)
Finally talking to Samuel. Hehs.
But he's playing some game now.
I don't like being clanless
so I joined Naj's clan in FL. Haa.
Won't be playing for long though. =x
Off for now. =)

-nIx- @ [[9:55 PM]]

February 07, 2005

*Updated below =)
I just feel like migrating
to another country.
Away from here.
To leave all my memories behind.
To find better past times.
To be free from this crap here.
To go overseas and never come back.
To be away from everything I once knew.
Yet they call this running away.
Yea. And for your information,
I'm not that free either.
I've got work.
And I miss school.
Don't say school is boring etc.
There's so many things I regret.
Like not studying and all.
Rebel seems fun at this age.
But is downright bad.
It's useless, childish, crap!
I've lost my interest in games.
I wish I never found interest
in them or had already
gotten over my game frenzy
during the past four years.
Yes this is all crap.
You will all never understand
till you reach this stage.
By then, it'll be too late.
I want to get into University.
A good one.
I miss everyone at work. Haa.
Damn I want to curse and swear
at the ....... tv and
the person who is holding the control.
It's ...... emitting some freaking
high pitch sound whenever the
volume's turned to 0 or
when you reach some freaking
no channel page.
Freak it. Freak itt.
It's noisy.
I hate the sound.
Bahh.
Ok. My blood boils easily
these few days. =)
And it's so hard to cool down.
Bahh. I'm fine now.
I forced myself to be.

Everytime I see her nick.
I am so tempted to change
mine to she don't love you.
Don't be a lesbian please.
It seems fine for a nick
of a few days.
But not a nick of a few months.
It's horrible.

Yeaa. Some random stranger
sms-ed my number.
I don't know who.
But for my entertainment's sake.
I shall reply.

I just changed my nick. Haa.
Feel so happy about it.
I won't talk to nobody but
my classmates and buddyie today.
And the stranger.
I just don't feel like talking. =)
Off for now.

*
I feel so sad being alone.
So bored, so afraid.
And my mind wonders much.
I think a lot.
I don't like to be alone.
Yet at this time,
I don't want to talk.
To those whom I'm not
too close to.
Boo.
I'm thinking of chocolate again. =D
I completed my doll house.
It looks crap but nobody's
going to see it but me. =)
New year version plus another
art museum version. =x
I really put crap inside.
I don't have proper tables and chairs.
Ange's not going to want to see it. =D
Haa.
Still wondering if I have
an obsession with porcelaine dolls.

I just went clearing my drawer of
crap and it just made me really
laugh out loud. =)
The cards I kept are so sweet.
Then there's this composition
on which I wrote about
the boring daily life of school.
It's such a joke.
Because I remembered writing
that when many of us were
in the poem craze mode.
Then the teacher wasn't around
and there was a relief teacher
who asked us to write a composition.
And tadahh.
The compositions from everyone of us
sounded so rhyming. Hilarious. xD
Then I read about something
regarding what I wrote ages ago
about .:[L]iF[e]:. Boo.
Off for now. =)

-nIx- @ [[9:05 PM]]

Happy me. Hehs.
Met Ange at 2.30pm at Braddell.
Supposed to meet at 2pm.
But she had to eat and
pass her brother-in-law
the kiwi thingy so
I delayed and she delayed
even further.
Down to xsquare.
Not much computers.
Mine had no internet so
I shared computers with Ange.
Carrefour to visit Xuan.
Found out Wenlong, Kenneth
and some other guy works there too.
What more?
In my opinion, Perrier tastes
very very horrible. =)
I threw it away after a few sips.
$1.80 down the drain. =/
Then walked down to Cityhall
but decided to take a bus instead.
Choco heaven from Choco Box.
From Blurr! =D~
100g $10.30.
101g $10.40. Haa.
Yea. My mum says I'm crazy.
I bought a skirt from This Fashion.
Rare case. But I liked it.
$22 but reduced to $19.80
with Ange's mother's membership card.
Heh. I don't like the tradition
that I must buy new year clothes.
I don't think I'm going to buy
any more. Haa.
So I met Ange's mum, sister and family.
Haa. And I've seen her brother before.
I've got this very huge temptation
to walk in a hotel alone and order something
and stay there and eat at my own pace. =D
I shall.. Someday. =)
I still have Meiji chocolate to curb
my temptation for the $10.40 chocos. =D~
Oh ya. So we went to dinner at 10+.

Toa Payoh don't know what 8.
Ate satay and western food with Ange.
I think I spent less than $20 this week.
Excluding that dress($19.80) and work chalet($10).
Ah. I love the people at work. xD
I used to be feel racist
towards a certain group of people.
Not that I do anything to them.
I just don't like them mentally.
But now I find that they're one
of the best people at work.
Ah. I was wrong about them people.
They're so friendly and helpful
and kind and good hearted and sociable..
and absolutely lovable. xD
I'm worried I won't be able to go back
once I've come back from Korea. =(~
I worry that the slots are all taken up.
I want to learn so many languages.
Malay, Tamil, Japanese and most of all..
Chinese. =X~
I want to go to JC now. =(
Then I can continue with those
courses in poly that require A levels.
I really hope that I'd come by the
chance of getting into JC.
I suddenly remembered why I lost
interest in Chinese.
Because I studied so hard for the subject
during Sec2.
I remembered I was studying with Samantha.
Yes. We both failed. =x
Then I was absolutely devasted
with the results.
She passed.
Me.. 48/100.
Yea and since then I always had this
mentality that I'd fail no matter
how hard I studied.
And viola. F9 here I come.
Well it actually came all the
way from Primary School.
I saw my report book a very long time back.
Ehhs. 47 or 48/100 for P1 Mid-Year.
Hurray.
Then I also remember being the only
one in class to fail during one
of the exams in upper primary.
Dread.
I hope to get a Merit in Chinese B. =x
And I really really wish for an A in Maths.
I don't know.
I just want to prove to myself
that it's possible to get A1 from F9.
And I've this feeling to retake
Maths if I don't get it.
I still keep my Maths notes.
I threw the other subjects away.
And I've yet to prove to the
Whitley Principal/V.P
[[I can't remember.]]
that I can do it.
Thanks for not giving me a chance.
You're evil. =D Ahahaks.
I hate you!
You gave me really stupid reasons.
I will remember you. =)
I miss Ernest.
Hope to get really good results
so I can dare applying to resource.
Ahahaks. But I promised Ernest 6 A1s.
How am I to face him? =/
Sad to say I forgotten all the names
of my group members. But I still
have a little memory of how they
looked like.
All younger than me. xd.
I don't know how I knew
those I didn't know in camp.
Especially Melissa and Ian.
But we talk often. Haha.
Only knew them after the camp.
Bahh.
I miss Superteens. Hahas.
Ya okay.
I admit I became guai after
that programme. Love it lots.
I still remember when we were
split up to do spidergrams,
I heard two guys at the same
table saying something about
the feeling of a
first kiss/hug or something.
Then they were saying something
like go ask a girl how it feels
or something like that.
LOL! I don't know who they were
at that time
and I still don't know.
Maybe by now I would have known them.
It'll remain a mystery. =x
There's a lot of things
I want to say about this.
But I guess it's better left
known to me and only me. =x
Ian told me Ernest went to
host the programme in the school.
So he went through it the 2nd time.
But he expected all the stuff to happen.
Haa. I've this very itchy feeling
to introduce this to the school.
I think it's good.
Ian says he's seen some of them
changed after the programme.
I want to see them change.
Haa. They've got really bad,
bad, bad, bad, bad attitude.
Well not all but some..
I don't feel worried about my
results yet. I don't know why.
Maybe there's no point worrying.
It's already fixed.
Your fate is already closed
the moment you submit the papers.
I'd most probably start worrying
the day before though. =x
Blur's hp number got 4D. Haas.
Off for now.

Yea I'm back.
And I feel sad all of a sudden.
My once best friend of eons
is now almost someone I just know
who exists.
All because of one incident.
Ya I'll never forget it.
It made me find a lot of faults
in you.
But even then.
I get jealous at times.
All you think of is her.
Does she really deserve it?
And her.
I really missed the times
when we went out together,
for events, movies, outings,
chalets and just random meetups.
We used to be close.
But not now.
I'd forgive, I'd hardly forget.
But I can't seem to remember
the reason why we drifted away
from each other. =/
But I some how still don't get
what she sees in me last time.
Tall and skinny with long hair
while me short, tootish hairstyle and fat!
[I used to think I wasn't. -.-]]
I'm not someone with low self esteem
but I just wonder what she sees in me.
I remember how close we were,
online or offline.
The times we got in trouble.
Bahbah.
I remember a lot of memories
from Oz.
And I just can't help but
feel like tearing
everytime I think of Oz.
I wish dreams would come true.
Everytime I come home from work.
I'd be walking for a few minutes
to my block and admiring the beautiful sky.
The stars are plenty.
They remind me of Oz related stuff and someone else.
It's a real pity OZ's gone.
It made such a huge impact -
a big footprint in my life.
I might not be the craziest over it
but I miss it very much.
The enemies I made. [[LOL.]]
The people I've met.
Those that I wasn't afraid of.
[[Yes I'm proud to say that.]]
Yea these memories will forever
be part of my life, my love.
Bahbah.
I thought I wanted to promise myself
never to think about it again.
But I can't help it.
I don't want to wake up from that dream.
I'd be very selfish to myself
to believe that it'd come back.
Maybe if I've grown up, rich and all
and my passion for it hasn't faded,
I'd buy it. =)
Or maybe 10years down the road.
The person who stopped it
would regret his decision. =)
No other game is more pleasant.
I'd even go in alone.
It's so entertaining.
I miss it loads.
Bahbah!
I should go to sleep.
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[1:41 AM]]

February 05, 2005

So I'm back!
I've got the what thing
you get when you work
and I don't know which
company signed me up for it.
I forgot the word.
The one that will have money
going into there. =x
Workaholic.
I'm not working next week
or the week after. =x
I'm going to Korea from
12-18Feb.
The trip I was supposed
to go during December'04.
I always miss holidays
to go overseas. -.-||
Wed.
Met at Bedok.
Cabbed down.
Stayed up till 6+
Bbq-ing, cycling and pool
(I was watching.)
went to sleep at
7am to 9.30am.
Woke up and couldnt sleep
so I cleaned the floor
and went cycling and breakfast.
Left there directly to work.
Thurs
Wanted to go home
but Yu Ping wanted to go down
so we went cabbing down.
Ah Wu paid. Rich la. =x
Talked, went to the beach,
learnt some new card games.
Then the one who won 700
on the first day and 100 on
the second day learnt it
in a few seconds.
I'm slow LOL.

Today. 6am
Cabbed home.
Someone from Room Service
paid. The one who won plenty.
Reached home at 6.45am.
Slept at 7am.
I somehow didn't hear my alarm
at 2pm.
Mum woke me up at 2.30pm.
I knew I heard something
but the moment I heard work
I immediatly woke up.
Figured she was saying.
"Eh you sleep now don't need
to go work today ah."
Or something of the sort.
My skirt was loose like hell.
The elastic band had the
elasticity of nothing. Haa.
I couldn't place my handphone
into the pocket.
It looked so long. -.-
Ended up rolling it and using
clips to clip off the tags and all.
Passed my phone to Bernard to keep.
The skirt was still as loose. -.-
B station today.
Urggh.
The one that's always empty.
Kept doing backlane and odd jobs.
Didn't finish folding the napkins.
I gave up on that. =x
I love closing stations.
Unfortunately, I already felt like
I was in Lala land by then.
Somehow doing stuff sub conciously.
All so dreamlike. =x~
Was very tired too.
Asked Bernard to help me take trays
because I was tired.
"It's all in the mind.. You think
you're tired, you're tired.
You think you're not then you're not."
But I couldn't think I wasn't tired. Heh.
I koped cake today.
With the help of Ismadi.
Haa. So yummy.
First time eating the cake. =x
Wonder why the rest don't
show a liking for it.
Maybe they found something nicer.
Served tea to one table.
"You look very young. Still schooling?"
"No waiting for O's results."
"Huh? So young.."
*Smiles.
Then walked away hearing him say
something in chinese then I supposed
he translated it to child labour. Lol.
The pianist was playing
one of the songs from
Phantom of The Opera. So sweet. <3
I'm dead tired.
Off to the real Lala land.

-nIx- @ [[2:53 AM]]

February 02, 2005

Haa. Okay.
Work wasn't as happy as yesterday.
Was working with the staff
that I'm not as close with.
Havn't seen them much.
But it's still happy nIx
at the end of the day. =D~

I'm underaged. =x
There wasn't any napkins
to fold at the beginning
of work so I was stoning around.
Not too long actually.
The manager's sis was on MC
and so the poor lounge
had only one person.
There was supposed to be
a total of three
but it just happened
that they decided to
plan on two for the day.
So I was supposed to help
them out from 4pm - 5pm
until the next shift came in
but I was stuck there till about 6pm.
With I forgot who asking me to go back,
looking a bit angry.
Why? Maybe because there was
enough people by the time he
saw me there.
They just arrived like
a few minutes before that.
Or else it would be because
I said I'd be back by 5pm
but came back late
and missed my break. =/
So the manager came over
and told whoever I was helping out
and I went for second break.
After eating went to the lounge
to take drinks.
"Xiao mei ni chi le ma?"
Yada yada.
Then he said something about
not eating then get something
and nobody will ke lian blabla.
"Bu yao xiang wo jie jie zhe yang
shi nian zhuo gong mei chi fan.
Ni kan ta zhe me sou."
She looks younger than him though.
Then thoughout my 2hours there
he taught me where to face the
placemat/coaster to.
I think he's so kind. Haha.
I usually thought of managers
as those who don't care about you
as long as you do your work properly.
I was wronged.
Then somewhere just before
the end of my shift
"Xiao mei ni ji sui."
Then I was deciding between 16 and 17
and ended up with 16.
Walked away after getting my order
and heard him saying something like
I'm very young.
Either to work or that I shouldn't
be helping in the lounge just now.
Heh.
There's this entertaining
couple in station A.
Was serving them water.
Then the guy asked a few questions
and kept hiccuping all the way.
Lol. Red wine.
Then after quite some time
I gave him the bill.
"Let me see the price. $158.73.
So much? Let me double check.
....
.....
.....
1% service charge
5% gst. So much?"
Then the lady he was sitting
next to him pointed at him
and then circled her finger around
the side of her head.
[[Meaning he's crazy(drunk)]]
"Don't mind him. What do you do
with people like him?"
"Nothing."
Yea. But he said everything was good.
I should have asked some full time staff
to give him the comment slip thingy. =x
Jun Min badly wanted to talk to them
but didn't get the chance to. -.-||

Not working later. =p
Going down to chalet.
My mum allows me to stay over!
I shall see the situation. Haa.
I need a bath. =x
Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[1:51 AM]]

February 01, 2005

Yea. Oink is someone I crap
to every now and then.
But I still miss my crapping
buddy so much.
I don't care whether
he treats me as one
but I just find him nice
and comfortable to talk to.
Yea I havn't blogged for
a considerably long time.
Woke up at 6am.
Very tired at work. =)
Came there not too interested.
Was still quite sad about
di's job. =/~
But nevertheless, I loved work today.
Not too busy, not too free either.
Was practically folding napkins
from the start of work till sunset.
All mine! Excluding break time
and random going to the bar.
I love the bar.
Makes me feel happy going there.
I like listening to the piano. =x~
Brake time was hilarious.
Willard went wine tasting
the face was so red. Ahahaks.
I couldn't help but laugh.
Being full by drinking
water the whole break. =x
Utaya was trying is some kind
of pro at cleaning cutlery.
I'm still wondering how
he manages to distinguish
the difference between them
with weight while carrying
all at one time.
Then he decided act pro
and do it with his eyes closed.
So I shifted the cutlery box
and that incident made me laugh like
I never did before.
So entertaining. =)
They really made my day. =)
I'm loving it. xD.
I better. Heh.
Spending all my weekdays
with them this week. xp
Work later. =D

-nIx- @ [[1:23 AM]]